Made a new Facebook note on Laurice today. Made me realize that life is short. So very short.
In other news, I passed the first round for GSP nomination! UC Berkeley has elected me, which probably puts my chances of getting into the program at about 60% maybe? Now I just need to hear back from Todai and FOT scholarship. I hope I get to go!
Life is moving on.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
pivotal moments
Yesterday was one of the biggest shockers of my life. Maybe even the biggest. I might even dare to say that the midterm was pivotal to my academic career.
I have never done so badly on a single midterm in my life. The last time I screwed up this badly was when I overslept and almost failed my AIDS Science and Society midterm two years ago. This time, I know I failed. Walking into that midterm and seeing how everyone had their study notes neatly diagramming every disease lectured just affirmed what I already knew: SCREWED. Now I'm just wondering what kind of F I received.
But you know what. I used up the large majority of my panic before the midterm; by the time it was over I had already come to terms with my failure. For some reason, I never seem to learn my lesson until God puts a failure in my life. I want everything, but He closes the doors and leaves me with one thing.
So what I've decided is this: I'm changing MCB C103 to P/NP. In reality, this isn't a huge setback. I could continue on with my plans for double major still. But I believe that God purposely placed this event into my life to put it back on His path. I hate MCB; I can hardly see how it would be useful to my future career. The more I'm here, the less I understand why I chose biology in the first place. The secondary degree is really an issue of pride, which I've known for a really long time. I hate to relinquish it, just like how I hate to relinquish sin. But God understands the complexity of me much more than I know, and he knows which path is right for me.
So I guess what I'm saying is that I have to always think positively. God has consistently turned my failures into victories, and I'll trust that His plans are greater than mine. He gives and takes away -- but when He gives too much, I become prideful and selfish, forgetting to remember that every day I'm here is because of His grace.
The irony is this: lose a class, gain a semester. Because I'm failing a class, I'm graduating on time.
I have never done so badly on a single midterm in my life. The last time I screwed up this badly was when I overslept and almost failed my AIDS Science and Society midterm two years ago. This time, I know I failed. Walking into that midterm and seeing how everyone had their study notes neatly diagramming every disease lectured just affirmed what I already knew: SCREWED. Now I'm just wondering what kind of F I received.
But you know what. I used up the large majority of my panic before the midterm; by the time it was over I had already come to terms with my failure. For some reason, I never seem to learn my lesson until God puts a failure in my life. I want everything, but He closes the doors and leaves me with one thing.
So what I've decided is this: I'm changing MCB C103 to P/NP. In reality, this isn't a huge setback. I could continue on with my plans for double major still. But I believe that God purposely placed this event into my life to put it back on His path. I hate MCB; I can hardly see how it would be useful to my future career. The more I'm here, the less I understand why I chose biology in the first place. The secondary degree is really an issue of pride, which I've known for a really long time. I hate to relinquish it, just like how I hate to relinquish sin. But God understands the complexity of me much more than I know, and he knows which path is right for me.
So I guess what I'm saying is that I have to always think positively. God has consistently turned my failures into victories, and I'll trust that His plans are greater than mine. He gives and takes away -- but when He gives too much, I become prideful and selfish, forgetting to remember that every day I'm here is because of His grace.
The irony is this: lose a class, gain a semester. Because I'm failing a class, I'm graduating on time.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
updates
I really need to update my blog more often.
I'm having a little breather right now, but soon work will start piling up again. At least I've accomplished something noteworthy in the last week: an above average CS61C exam (big accomplishment!) and a completed IARU Tokyo University study abroad application and scholarship. I really hope I get it!
Heh heh. And Spring break is coming up soon. And so is another archery tournament, CCC. Get to do some long distance shooting. I haven't been this happy in a while.
:D
I'm having a little breather right now, but soon work will start piling up again. At least I've accomplished something noteworthy in the last week: an above average CS61C exam (big accomplishment!) and a completed IARU Tokyo University study abroad application and scholarship. I really hope I get it!
Heh heh. And Spring break is coming up soon. And so is another archery tournament, CCC. Get to do some long distance shooting. I haven't been this happy in a while.
:D
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