distractions

last night, i had the longest sleep. ever. in my life. probably.

i started sleeping right after dinner for some reason. probably around 7.30pm.

i woke up at 3.00am to my drunken roommates. i went back to sleep at 4.00am.

i woke up again at 9.00am to a phone call. i went back to sleep.

i woke up and went back to sleep at 10am. when i finally got up, it was already 11.30am.

so, in short, i spent about 15 hours in bed. now that's never happened before.

as for school work in general, i'm getting myself killed over it. i'm not too sure what i should do but i know i gotta do something to keep myself from getting distracted. no more cod, no more watching anime reading manga. well, at least not more than one at a time.

which brings me to another point. i seem to get myself into serious distractions whenever i'm stressed and it stresses me out more. i don't know why! during finals week, i watched winter sonata, all twenty-five episodes, in that week alone! that's a full day just spent in front of a computer screen, within a single week! and today i reread almost the entire ubel blatt manga series just for the heck of it! (which is a really great manga, if you get the chance to read it)

i realize now that i need to spend a lot of time in prayer. that's something i haven't done lately, and i can feel a certain toll mentally. being in constant communication with God really keeps one healthy, and with all the time i waste, i know i can definitely invest it in something greater.

overload

i can't believe it's already tuesday. time is flying by too quickly and i just can't catch up. there's no time to finish assignments or play anymore. there's no time to eat or sleep anymore. i have habits to make and habits to break. still, i must endure on.

oh God, help me please.

steadfast faith

Trust in God. Question the lies of the world. See what Christianity really holds with objectivity.

In other news, I received this email in my inbox today.

Dear Mr. Yang –
The Instructor has notified the Academic Integrity Office that he is withdrawing the Policy on Integrity of Scholarship violation allegation (#12592) made against you in PHYS 1AL , Winter 2010. Thus, the Academic Integrity Review you requested has been cancelled and we will return your file to your college dean.

In addition, the Instructor will now submit the proper university documentation to change your grade from an IP to the grade you earned in the course. Please note that the change of grade process can take several weeks to occur, but you should contact our office if the new grade is not appearing on Tritonlink after 8 weeks.
Best wishes for your remaining time at UCSD.

A huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders.

God is teaching me the meaning of persistence and patience.

tired

waking up at 2:30am to start my doc journal.

i'm living such an unhealthy lifestyle.

school-sick

sighs this quarter has made me very sick. nope, not physically sick. school-sick.

i'm getting so tired and fed up with all the work i have to do for everything every day. i kind of wish i could go back to fall quarter--now that was fun. this quarter just plainly--sucks. i absolutely detest DOC and physics 1B. AIDS science and society is very interesting but wayyy too much work for all the little things we're required to know. and chem lab is just too early and stressful. gosh i can't wait for this quarter to be over.

socially my world is dying too. cliques have formed like in high school in a more severe sense (obviously none includes me); i don't even feel like i belong in IV anymore. speaking of which, i need a place where i can be more real.

even my dorms are no longer really welcoming. the tightness that we once had during first quarter is entirely lost: everyone has their own agendas now. we don't eat together. we don't study together. we don't play games together (as much). we're just consumed by our own things, whether it be classwork, study, friends, jobs (for me that is), etc.

oh how i miss the good ol' days. the days when i didn't want to come back home cause it was all fun 'n games (i've come home every weekend this quarter so far). oh well--the only thing good i can even think up at the moment is the fact that my sister came home after not seeing her for two quarters. more incentive to go home on the weekends.

sighs. hang on alan, it will soon be over. hang on.

ughhhhh

i'm starting to get really sick of when people give me major attitude. it makes me really pissed off when people misinterpret my good intentions and then treat me like crap.

luckily i always have a cool down period where i just try not to think about it, and then suddenly i pretty much forget or don't care about it anymore.

i think i'm in desperate need of prayer.

busyness of life

wow what a hecka busy week.

mon: 9-10am physics at york. 10-11am register bike and purchase lock at bike shop. 11am-12pm doc at center. 12pm-3pm work at leichtag biomed. 3-4pm honors seminar at tmc admin building. 5-6pm ucsd bookstore for lab supplies. 6-11pm dinner at piatti for delia's birthday.

tues: 8-11am chem lab at york. 11-2pm work at lbr. 3.30-5pm bicd136 at warren. 6-8pm lab safety training. 8-11pm iv small group.

wed: 9-10am physics. 10-11am doc discussion at sequoia. 11-12pm doc at center. 12-3pm work. 3-5.30pm lab safety training. 7-8pm chem lab lecture at york. 9-10pm chem prelab write-up.

not to mention the week before: purchasing laptop from newegg and setting it up all week, purchasing a bike off craigslist from anaheim on friday, surgery thursday, 8am senior retreat meeting before all day film festival and dinner party at night on saturday.

and you know what. i just realized i haven't taken a shower since i came to school.